Friday, June 16, 2017

I wish to be 6 months old

When i see my 6 months old daughter, i wish to be like her. A smile on her face makes me energetic again after a long tiring day. She doesn't judge me, you or anyone. She listens to you if she wants to listen and ignore if she is not in mood. She is unaffected by the force named "Society". She doesn't think what other people will think. She is not forced to make every other person happy, yet she succeeds each time to make everyone happy. She wears a invisible blanket of innocence which makes her what she is. Its her innocent nature which i adore.  I wish to be as innocent as her....


She is not biased to any political party, for the fact she is not biased to any nation... She doesn't distinguish between an Indian and a Pakistani... She don't know any border or any LOC... She doesn't distinguish between a South Indian and a North Indian... She don't know the word "Religion"...  She doesn't distinguish between Hindu & Muslim, Temple and Mosque... She can not speak any language which we understand...  She knows only language of love and affection... I wish to be unbiased as her...


I am worried about my career and future... I am worried about my surroundings, clothing and almost everything i can think of, no matter how small it sounds... Worries and stress keeps pouring in my life... My wife is worried about what to cook for breakfast... I am worried about my weight... Only person in my family who is not at all worried is my daughter..  My daughter is not worried about earning money; getting late for office; missing a train; career and appraisal or anything in the world, no matter how big it is... She doesn't know what it's like to have worries... She doesn't know how it feels to be stressed... I wish to live a day like her, when i am not thinking....


I am curious about IRSO's next mission and she is not even aware that where she is crawling, is called a planet as per English dictionary... Forget what planet it is...  I am confused what needs to be done and what not... She doesn't know how it feels to be confused... I have knowledge and she has her imagination... I need a reason to smile, she needs a reason not to smile... I am not sure what makes me happy... I can't define my boundaries, my world... She has her own small world... She is most happy when she sees her mother (not me )... She has own definition of happiness... I am a graduate but still I wish to be literate like her...


I have a ego, everyone has... I get angry on so many things, everyone does... It's difficult to forgive people... It's hard to move on with a broken heart... It's hard to trust people surrounding us... It's hard to believe strangers... It's hard to impress someone... She doesn't care about all this and enjoys her life... She doesn't get offended... I wish to be ignorant and forgiving like her...


I procrastinate 2 - 3 weeks before I start something new... She learn new things every 2 - 3 weeks... If she wants to sit, then her dedication is worth seeing... She is self motivated...  I am her father but there is lot to learn from her, someone of them seems impossible to me... I wish i could be like her...



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